9.07.2009

Learning to be content and just trust

It seems lately a lot things have been happening in a not so good way. First my computer gets a virus and then who knows what has happened to my car. This has caused a lot of stress in my life because both could be big expenses to fix and with both of us being in grad school we don't have a lot of money. Luckily Jonathan fixed my computer. After my car messed up I was like I don't even care about my computer I can get it fixed later. We aren't sure what is wrong with my car but two Honda places and Jonathan's dad have all said the same thing and if they are right it would cost probably no less than $2,000 to fix. My car isn't even worth much more than that! I have never in my life had a problem with my car. I always get my oil changed when needed. I have taken very good care of my car so I don't know why this all of a sudden happened. We are taking it to Honda World tomorrow to see what the problem is. Hopefully it isn't as bad as it sounds. If it is then we have to make the decision to get it fixed or to get a new car. I would love to get a different car, but I was wanting that to happen after I graduate. We do have money in savings and that's why we save just in case things like this happen. It is just hard to let it go.

Anyways through all of this I have learned once again to trust in God and be content with what happens because he is there for me and he will provide. My birthday is coming up and this will probably be my present. In my mind I am thinking woo hoo. I know that is selfish but I just always think of bdays as being a day where you get stuff you have been wanting and you normally wouldn't buy for yourself. oh well as long as I get my car fixed and I have my hubbie and dog I will just fine. Trying to be content here. My job is so amazing! After working with these kids I have learned that I really do have it good. I always knew that, but when you see it first hand it really makes you stop and think. So what if I don't get a bday present, those kids probably rarely get to celebrate their birthdays. If we do end up having to get a different car, we will have to cut things out like eating out. It will be hard but I know we can manage. The weather is getting nice and it will be fun to grill and eat outside on our swing!

I was reading through some scripture today and here are a couple of verses that stuck out to me:

Phillipans 4: 11-13: I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Psalms 112:7 He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord.

I just can't worry about things and it is so hard not to. In the end though, I know God and Jonathan are always on my side.

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